Completion of a Drawing

Every hour I spend on it makes the drawing worse.
I can’t go on. I need a break.
But for a break, I need at least an intermediate result.
I mean, a successful one.
One that gives me the courage not to give up drawing completely.
Only, the energy isn’t enough.
And this intermediate result, I’ve been waiting for it for hours.
OK. When did I still like the drawing?
Yesterday. The pencil draft? Yes.
So we discard all the colour combinations I tried today? Yes.
What a waste of time, energy, paper, and paint! – Yes, perhaps.
Now I’ll give up drawing forever.
“I will never draw again!”
Apparently, I can’t anyway.
That means consistency.
What a relief!
Never draw again, just imagine!
Now it applies forever.
I mean: Just now, you know?
That is also relieving.